This week has been one of those weeks that made me want to either hit the reset button or go hide until it is over. It has been a combination of many little things bombarding us at once. I’m sure being extremely tired from devoting most of the past 2 months to the moving process has set the stage for such a week. However, there was one series of events that has been especially disheartening. We discovered this week that an individual The Big Guy has tried to help was and still is launching personal attacks behind our backs. Well, now I guess it isn’t behind our back because we are aware of the situation. I have felt betrayed and hurt because we had reached out to someone who seriously needed among other things a friend. While we knew the individual had issues we really believed this person was a friend.
It is extremely frustrating and discouraging when I help someone who betrays me, takes advantage of the situation or otherwise acts in a less than honorable manner. This has happened a few times in the past. It makes me want to withdraw from others and adopt a “trust no one” policy. In the past I have said I will never help someone again but of course I do.
This raises the question of why help others? I guess there are several reasons I help others. One reason would be that is just part of my personality and hard-wiring. Also, I have found that when I take time to help others and invest in relationships I become less self-centered. It gives me less time to dwell on my on problems. Another reason would be the principle of treating others the way I want to be treated.”
Well, I guess that is enough ranting for now. — D.